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  I haven't made our story totally public. Now I feel like I'm being called to share it. Maybe someone will read this and it helps, I'm not sure. 

 April 12th.

 

 Easter Sunday, that night we had a bad storm with even worse wind! All of my county lost power just about. We basically had no power for half the week.

April 13th.

 First doctor appointment. We were excited my appointment was finally here! My doctor waits to see you when your atleast 8weeks along. When I was getting my ultrasound I felt something was wrong I could sense it.

 The tech asked me if I was sure about my dates, ofcouse I thought so but could've been wrong. She told me to sit tight and she was calling the nurse to come get me. Which was very strange. I just knew in that moment it wasn't good. I remember texting my husband and letting him know what was going on. At the time I had to go alone due to clinic taking precautions.

 Nurse took me back and my doctor came in and explained what was going on. Miscarriage. I was confused I've had no signs of one. She told me my type of miscarriage is called a Blighted Ovam.

 Basically my body is saying pregnant but nothing happen past implantation. I broke out in tears. 

We decided I would wait it out and see what happens instead of D&C.

April 21st.

 At this point nothing had happened so we decided to try a medicine to help put things into motion, if this didn't work I would have to go in for D&C to not risk infection.

May 6th.

 Day I will never forget! That day I wasn't feeling well at all. Sure enough it was starting. I don't think anything can prepare you for this. I wouldn't wish this experience on my worst enemy.

 My husband was off that day, and luckily I was working from home. He went took our son fishing and I was waiting for the internet guy to show up (which he was late). 5:06 it all started worst nightmare! And ofcourse the guy shows up. I'm sure he thought I was being really strange. I called my mom to come by since I could not be in the living room at the time (leaving out those details).

 It took us awhile to actually grieve, right when we got the news we couldn't break down because we had our son with us. It's only been almost three months and some days are harder than others. But I have faith.

 I remember asking God why? I don't understand. I still don't fully understand but I'm sure one day I will get my sign and understanding.

 I want to shout out to my one of my close friends who was there for me the whole time, and put up with being hard headed as usual. You know who you are, and I love you.

-So do not fear, for I am with you; for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Isaiah 41:10

-I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

Philippians 4:13

 Looking back the most difficult part was having to explain myself to people, that's what it felt like to me. People didn't understand because it didn't happen in an instant.

 I pray for any woman whose experienced this. May the Lord heal you, mentally and physically.

 Lastly thank you to everyone has prayed and continues to pray for us. Much Love!

-Kate